Something big.
Something that I now feel like I should have known, something everyone should know.
The hardest part of life isn't writing essays or getting to work on time or juggling three kids and making dinner, or even battling cancer or losing people you love. Those things can be hard, but they're not the hardest thing in the world.
The hardest part of living is being honest with yourself.
The hardest things aren't the essays; it's admitting to yourself that you just don't care enough about the subject. It's not getting to work on time; it's realizing that you don't want to leave the house one minute earlier than you have to because you really just can't stand being harassed by your coworkers. It's not juggling three kids and making dinner; it's knowing that you're too busy to actually sit down with them and find out what they're up to. It's not battling cancer; it's that you don't know if you did everything that you wanted to in life. It's not losing someone you love; it's realizing that you love them, far too late.
I suppose that sounded pessimistic; but we can be honest with ourselves so much easier about the good things in life.
We don't need to keep things so deep inside that we don't even know they're there.
Today I came to a realization.
And it wasn't a great one.
But it was important.
And I don't yet know how it changes things; I just know that it makes a whole lot more sense.
I think I stopped writing for a while there because I wasn't be honest with myself. And how could I possibly expect myself to be honest with you and give you insight when I can't even do that alone?
Another thing I've learned; it's hard to be honest with yourself, even if you're honest with the people you love.
It's also even harder (for me, at least) to accept honesty from other people. I had a friend try to help me come to this conclusion and I was hearing none of it.
She was right, I suppose. And although she didn't get her point across to me the way I needed it put, I now know that she understood. That she understands.Thank you.
So listen to the people who are honest with you! They make a whole lot more sense than you think. In fact, half the time your friends (the good ones) are telling you the things you already know, but you just won't admit to yourself.
Come to terms with something that's been bothering you. You may not know what it is yet, but one day, when you take a moment to just be with yourself and your thoughts, you'll realize something. Something you've known all along but ignored without realizing.
Your life won't become any less complicated.
But you'll know for next time not to hold things in, and you'll be honest with yourself more often. Maybe save you from heartbreak down the road.
I'm sorry I had to be vague here; it probably makes very little sense. But know that things will be ok if you're honest with yourself; you've already conquered half of life's complexities.
This all started with some inspiring PostSecrets I found.
Here are my favourites.
Some of them might even be mine...
